So often when I have written a post for this blog it has felt like a compulsion. The words have been spinning around in my head for several days until at last the pressure becomes so great they burst through the keyboard. Particularly when I’ve written about my objections to traditional educational paradigms it has felt like exorcising demons.
Looking back I have wondered where those demons came from. They came not from my school. That is for sure. In fact there has been nothing but support from my employer for this blog in which I have been questioning everything.
How did I get so lucky to work at Proctor Academy?
The demons of the traditional educational paradigms were within me, the result of my own experience as a student, the teacher training I received as a young pup after college, and a lifetime immersion in the field of education, that I realize now has been unable or unwilling to examine itself deeply until recently.
Today I wake up in a new and wonderful place. Having written about what I don’t like about the bell curve concept of testing, or why I felt dubious about the use of valuable educational time this fall for exam week, I feel freed up.
What is left is a sensation of both clarity and peace.
The demons are gone, for now anyway, maybe forever? The flavor of this blog may change. I’m not sure. It seems to be a journey. There are new things I want to write about. Perhaps the demons were mountains that had to be climbed and right now the path is through green valleys.
I know why I’m here and what is my purpose.
I am here for the kids.
Certainly I’ve always known this, but having processed so much through the writing of this blog, this new clarity is an open space, like a crystalline bright fall day.
This is what education is about to me.
It is about the kids.